Trembling inside

POETRY

My mind is spinning

Loosing grip of held positions of the past

Like a tornado blasting through my environment and leaving nothing behind

There is a silence and an emptiness

An uncertainty and a fearful mind

Please don’t leave

I am sorry

I didn’t mean to

Showers of shame and regret are washing over me

Like waves they come and go

I am anchored to something deeper within

I have been here before

Something new is on its way and I have outgrown the old

In surrender I wait

Cutting through illusion

POETRY

Taking an uncertain step out from my house

This house has been my savior

This is where my life has happened

Outside this house is the real world

A world where I can get hurt

A world where I can experience love, passion, joy

Out in the real world I feel as if I have no skin

I have seen through my own illusion

As I step outside and close the door it crumbles behind me

It was never real

Here I am

With a clearer lens

I am standing on my own two feet

I am taking responsibility for my own life

You are not alone

POETRY

A loud scream in the silent night

The wolves are howling and I am ready to fight

The only person I am fighting is myself

I don’t want to fight anymore

I can’t fight anymore

On the other side of defeat is an opening

On the other side is more truth, love, peace and clarity

This is the path, to give up again and again

You are not alone

Open your eyes and you will see

Open your heart and you will feel

You do not need to do this alone

All you need to do is ask for help

A new reality

POETRY

To experience once reality evaporate

Left in a space where words have no meaning

An emptiness that is so full yet there is nothing to grab onto

A peculiar feeling of complete freedom and openness yet there is nothing that can be done, nowhere to move

If all is here in this very moment then how can you move somewhere else?