Trembling inside

POETRY

My mind is spinning

Loosing grip of held positions of the past

Like a tornado blasting through my environment and leaving nothing behind

There is a silence and an emptiness

An uncertainty and a fearful mind

Please don’t leave

I am sorry

I didn’t mean to

Showers of shame and regret are washing over me

Like waves they come and go

I am anchored to something deeper within

I have been here before

Something new is on its way and I have outgrown the old

In surrender I wait

A new reality

POETRY

To experience once reality evaporate

Left in a space where words have no meaning

An emptiness that is so full yet there is nothing to grab onto

A peculiar feeling of complete freedom and openness yet there is nothing that can be done, nowhere to move

If all is here in this very moment then how can you move somewhere else?

Space

POETRY

A blank space

Blown open

Trembling as there is no way back

No way to move forward

Just to be present and allow

Allow the process to work in me

Allow my body to rest

Allow my mind to grasp for information and lovingly seeing it is okay to not know

I am here

I am dissolving

Seeing I am just a space

Love is all there is and I cannot disconnect and hide anymore

I am open to seeing more

I am open to this journey

Coming home

POETRY

A child in a new world

Full of wonder and curiosity

A deep breath, exhale and I feel my heart

A little shaky as I take my first steps out in this beautiful world

I have stepped into my vulnerability yet I feel so strong

I can hold them both

I can dance between them and rest in the arms of my own love

I am transforming, shedding layers, becoming naked and real

A sense of fear yet I feel so peaceful

I know I am on the right path

I am on my way home

In deep gratitude

ART, ME, POETRY

What if you could be loved exactly like you are?

What if life was just waiting to give you more than you could ever imagine?

What if I told you I know it is true because it is happening to me….

To be allowed to be exactly like I am has set me free.

To realize that I am the only one who can give me permission to do so.

To see that I am held by the divine and its unconditional love, within and around me.

Having the freedom to do whatsoever I feel. To eat what I like, feel what I feel, express what I feel.

My body is becoming soft as my worries and complaints dissolve.

I am left with a deep sense of gratitude.

For myself. For the universe. For life.

A sense of completion as we are all one.

One creative energy, one living organism dancing together in perfect harmony.