My mind is spinning
Loosing grip of held positions of the past
Like a tornado blasting through my environment and leaving nothing behind
There is a silence and an emptiness
An uncertainty and a fearful mind
Please don’t leave
I am sorry
I didn’t mean to
Showers of shame and regret are washing over me
Like waves they come and go
I am anchored to something deeper within
I have been here before
Something new is on its way and I have outgrown the old
In surrender I wait
To experience once reality evaporate
Left in a space where words have no meaning
An emptiness that is so full yet there is nothing to grab onto
A peculiar feeling of complete freedom and openness yet there is nothing that can be done, nowhere to move
If all is here in this very moment then how can you move somewhere else?
A new space is opening up
I have been burnt alive and I am now rising from the ashes
Surrendering and allowing over and over
Letting music sooth me and trusting that my inner guidance is taking me home
A blank space
Trembling as there is no way back
No way to move forward
Just to be present and allow
Allow the process to work in me
Allow my body to rest
Allow my mind to grasp for information and lovingly seeing it is okay to not know
I am here
I am dissolving
Seeing I am just a space
Love is all there is and I cannot disconnect and hide anymore
I am open to seeing more
I am open to this journey
A bodily feeling
A scary picture in my mind
A cage with an open door
A child in a new world
Full of wonder and curiosity
A deep breath, exhale and I feel my heart
A little shaky as I take my first steps out in this beautiful world
I have stepped into my vulnerability yet I feel so strong
I can hold them both
I can dance between them and rest in the arms of my own love
I am transforming, shedding layers, becoming naked and real
A sense of fear yet I feel so peaceful
I know I am on the right path
I am on my way home
What if you could be loved exactly like you are?
What if life was just waiting to give you more than you could ever imagine?
What if I told you I know it is true because it is happening to me….
To be allowed to be exactly like I am has set me free.
To realize that I am the only one who can give me permission to do so.
To see that I am held by the divine and its unconditional love, within and around me.
Having the freedom to do whatsoever I feel. To eat what I like, feel what I feel, express what I feel.
My body is becoming soft as my worries and complaints dissolve.
I am left with a deep sense of gratitude.
For myself. For the universe. For life.
A sense of completion as we are all one.
One creative energy, one living organism dancing together in perfect harmony.